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追悼式

這是我第一次參加追悼式
本來以為自己會哭
出乎意料的
這場儀式 充滿了笑聲
 
大家都有自己與Dr. W的有趣故事
而所有故事的共同點 就是Dr. W特立獨行的個性:
他那令人印象深刻的通天吼
亂玩文字組合的髒話
以及天馬行空地給人取暱稱
 
他暴躁的脾氣與響亮的咆嘯在生前的時候令人畏懼
卻在走後 成為大家最想念他的地方
連同他那粗曠如維京海盜的大鬍子及
有顆泰迪熊般柔軟的心
被我們珍惜著 
 
我很高興 也很榮幸
儘管認識Dr. W只有三年 也有許多和他獨有的回憶
與他的家人與幾十年的老友
共享著
 
—–
 
Dr. Wagner, I wil remember you.
Please take care.
 
 

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過年in加州

一位印度太太曾對我說
在美國的印度人比住在印度的印度人還要傳統
我想這印證在離鄉背井的遊子的身上 無論國界或種族
 
因為擁有的越少 越想牢牢地抓住
離開自己成長的環境
在新天地裡 想家的心情總是難免
 
為了打造一些熟悉
能夠依賴的的 就是腦中的記憶
 
於是我發現自己
吆喝著一群朋友來家裡吃年夜飯
一早跑到大華辦年貨
拿著掃帚把門口的灰塵往外掃
剪了個"福"字 倒放著貼在門上
還堅持餐桌上要有條全魚及水餃 
 
在台灣的時候家裡也沒來這套
作夢沒想到
我居然試著印象中小學國語課文遵照傳統
只為抓到那一絲絲"年"的味道

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過年in台北城

小時後
過年台北鬧空城的時候 
好像就我一個沒有"鄉下"回去
 
三個人(偶爾加上爺爺是四個人)的年夜飯有點冷清 
平常常聽到的"要不要叫爸爸媽媽多生個弟弟給妳?"
在放鞭炮的時候偶爾頗同意

(至少要落跑的還有隻手可以抓)

 
或者是 大學的時候
像隻被留在家裡看門的貓
痴痴地等主人回來領取
 
住在加州 不放年假
少了一個人逗留台北的尷尬
難道感覺就會不一樣?
 
寂寞還是會有
所以我決定要為自己建立傳統

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心情三溫暖

昨天才被突發的消息撞得一片低氣壓 
還沒收拾好悲傷
今天晚上坐在電腦前邊打MSN邊尖叫
因為和十六年不見的小學同學再度聯絡上
 
背景音樂是恰克與飛鳥"天氣預報的戀人"
突然又變成那種想飛的心情 
 
每個生命都好寶貴
我們像是駐在地球上的一粒小沙微不足道
胸懷裡的小宇宙卻又浩瀚無界
偶爾在交會的時候擊出火花
 
我想保留一些時間哀悼
也想保留一些時間歡笑
所以那些讓我長大的領悟
才能用力地在記憶體有限的腦子裡刻下痕跡 
  
看到一個人寫著 "我喜歡現在的自己" 
不禁微笑
 
我也喜歡現在的自己
 
 
——
Aki 小姐 好久不見
請多多指教~~

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Dr. W passed away overnight while he slept during the weekend.

I was just hearing his loud voice from his office the day before. We were just discussing his grants, the budget, the plan, and stuff.

And he’s gone, just like that.

When I first started my job in the department, I was told he had throw things at people. He was so rude that someone quitted because of him. And he would curse in XXOO.

Indeed, his loud voice always scared me. When I joked about my worst nightmare in the first year was a professor running into the office and yelling at me "what did you do with my money??!!!!" I was picturing him.

Yet, he barely yelled at me. Only sometimes he would pretend to stare at me, looks intimating but playful.

He had a short-temper and was not very patient. He gave his opinions over everything. He would shout at people first and then apologize later. He would do things whatever he wanted. Sometimes his behavior might raise some eyebrows, though it never seemed to bother him. And actually he added flavor to this building, where is full of scholars, scientists, and labs.

The cursing. The yelling. The deep voice. He was quite a character. And I think that’s what we will all miss.

He called me "kiddo". He gave me my first Mexican Peso. When he winked at me after he signed my document, I felt that I’ve done a good job. That’s what I will miss.

He was just a couple months away from his retirement. And now he’s gone. The blessing is that he might not suffer, since he passed away in his sleep, by his wife’s side.

My PI. And I am very fortunate to work with him. Once.

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剛看完時沒有太大的感覺
細節與情緒卻一直縈繞在腦裡 慢慢地發酵….
 
比起一些灑狗血或強調感官刺激的異性戀/同性戀電影
這是一部非常誠懇而且寫實的愛情故事
 
我同情Jack 他的熱情無法溶化愛人心門上的鎖
卻也不能責怪Ennis 他的恐懼與壓抑為自身留下遺憾
 
這段愛情無法延伸出斷背山之外
每次短暫的溫存只是重複地拷貝相戀的那年夏天
 
如同風乾的標本
它的美麗從此成為永恆
卻再也不會體驗到其他的喜悅
 
推薦指數: 
—–
天外一筆
曾經看過一部日本片"After Life"
講得是剛死去的人都會有機會 選擇一段他們最想保留的記憶
上天堂以後 就會重複地活在那段記憶中
 
我想 對Jack和Ennis而言 他們會選擇在斷背山的日子吧

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Man, now I want to borrow the book from the library. I am curious, mainly because of the title. But I already set a goal to finish “The Da Vinci Code" before the movie release on May 19…..

So many good books, I have such a long book list and I am such a slow/ easily-distracted reader. Alas~

——

what I read today:
Roger Ebert’s movie review
in Wikipeida

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